We are caged from within, by ourselves;
our ways of life, our morals, our personality. We cannot change that. No matter
how brutal the fall or how hard we try, how many coats we plant on. We always remain
the same at our core. We always fall
prey to ourselves. Even the strongest of us breakdown, once in a while, from
the pressure of it all. It’s there,
pulling us down, drowning us whilst we try to breath in the stuffy air. Is it
wrong, is it really, to want from others at the same degree? Are our expectations
really pointless? Do we not deserve the same? Or are some of us just here to
look after and not be look-after-ed? It makes us want to change, we make promises
to ourselves but in the end we are the same, the same we were yesterday; probably
with another layer that is supposed to harden us, but is really just pointless.
We are there for others, standing there suspended in waiting while the others
have already moved on. They are too far to notice us still standing there stagnant
in emotions and morale. They've changed,
found another somebody to rely on, to look forward to. It doesn't matter to
them, but to us.
And at the end of the day, those
little unsaid words of appreciation are really what break us down. It makes us
wants to stop caring when we can’t, to stop expecting when we can’t; because we
our bound by our ways, our principles, our personality. Whilst they… they've gone... moved on.
Momina.
In just a few lines you've been able to pour in insecurities that I too am very familiar with. Very profound post Momina :') Commendable job on capturing the emotions so aptly!
ReplyDeleteThank you very much Ruya for your generous words! I am glad that that you can relate, not glad about us going through this, though!
DeleteEveryone has their own coping mechanisms. Some choose to move on disregarding the past and the people in it. Some choose to take them along with them although at a safe distance.
ReplyDeleteIt does make you want to stop caring, but maybe that's there for a reason. We are all caged in our ways.
You put it very well, Misaal. Thank you for stopping by, I hope to read your views in the future, too!
DeleteMomo this was a;skdalsfls amazing. Very very amazing!! :O
ReplyDeleteThank you Urbah! xx
DeleteBut who we are at the core can change, and often does. We can look back at who we were just a year ago, and see a difference. There are people who are carers, but at the same time, they themselves will be cared for by others too. I care about, and for people a great deal, and there are a few people who care about me.
ReplyDeleteWe don't change at the core, we just polish it.
DeleteAnd when those few who care, stop caring it hurts.
Thank you for stopping by! :
This made total sense.. :)
ReplyDeleteI am glad!
DeleteThank you for stopping by to share your views! :)
heartbreakingly true
ReplyDeletenothing we can do :-)
Thank you Vimal for your kind words! :)
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