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Monday, 26 November 2012

Stagnant in emotions




We are caged from within, by ourselves; our ways of life, our morals, our personality. We cannot change that. No matter how brutal the fall or how hard we try, how many coats we plant on. We always remain the same at our core.  We always fall prey to ourselves. Even the strongest of us breakdown, once in a while, from the pressure of it all.  It’s there, pulling us down, drowning us whilst we try to breath in the stuffy air. Is it wrong, is it really, to want from others at the same degree? Are our expectations really pointless? Do we not deserve the same? Or are some of us just here to look after and not be look-after-ed? It makes us want to change, we make promises to ourselves but in the end we are the same, the same we were yesterday; probably with another layer that is supposed to harden us, but is really just pointless. We are there for others, standing there suspended in waiting while the others have already moved on. They are too far to notice us still standing there stagnant in emotions and morale. They've changed, found another somebody to rely on, to look forward to. It doesn't matter to them, but to us.
And at the end of the day, those little unsaid words of appreciation are really what break us down. It makes us wants to stop caring when we can’t, to stop expecting when we can’t; because we our bound by our ways, our principles, our personality. Whilst they… they've gone... moved on. 

Momina.

12 comments:

  1. In just a few lines you've been able to pour in insecurities that I too am very familiar with. Very profound post Momina :') Commendable job on capturing the emotions so aptly!

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    1. Thank you very much Ruya for your generous words! I am glad that that you can relate, not glad about us going through this, though!

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  2. Everyone has their own coping mechanisms. Some choose to move on disregarding the past and the people in it. Some choose to take them along with them although at a safe distance.

    It does make you want to stop caring, but maybe that's there for a reason. We are all caged in our ways.

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    1. You put it very well, Misaal. Thank you for stopping by, I hope to read your views in the future, too!

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  3. Momo this was a;skdalsfls amazing. Very very amazing!! :O

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  4. But who we are at the core can change, and often does. We can look back at who we were just a year ago, and see a difference. There are people who are carers, but at the same time, they themselves will be cared for by others too. I care about, and for people a great deal, and there are a few people who care about me.

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    1. We don't change at the core, we just polish it.
      And when those few who care, stop caring it hurts.
      Thank you for stopping by! :

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    1. I am glad!
      Thank you for stopping by to share your views! :)

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  6. heartbreakingly true
    nothing we can do :-)

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    1. Thank you Vimal for your kind words! :)

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