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Monday, 9 July 2012

I cried...


We have a high roof in the lounge, higher than that in other rooms, so sometimes I lie down and stare at it, and I think. Last night, I stared at it because sleep wouldn’t come to me and I cried. I cried because I had lost friends. I cried because I knew I was losing the rest. I cried because I had no idea what was going on. I cried because I didn’t know the path of my future. I cried because I forgot what went on in the past. I cried because at that moment I forgot everything and I cried because I was lost, not known when to be found again. I cried because I was unhappy. I cried because my unhappiness made others unhappy. I cried because some people suddenly just stop. I cried because I wasn’t sure if they trusted me that moment. I cried because I was alone, because I was sad and for some reason guilty. I cried because sometimes nobody understands. And I cried because sometimes they understand too much. I cried because I misinterpreted people. I cried because everything is just an illusion. I cried because there really is no perfection. I cried because the end is always too close. I cried because it all made sense but then I cried because I was confused. I cried and cried and then I fell into an uneasy slumber. I hope nobody cries like that.

Momina.

9 comments:

  1. Why are we in a similar stage of agony??
    Listen to me, first of all do keep in mind that crying which I myself do so too, but after draining a bit of your pain in form of tears one must collect himself to stand again.

    Friends you lost or may lose aren't your friends at all in the first place. Someone who left your side even once is not worthy of your attention and friendship.

    Why am I saying so? Because I ruined my academic sessions and semester because of this issue and later I realize this.

    Whatever the situation is never ever give up!

    Take Care! :)

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    1. You are far too kind. And right. Thank you for your generous words, they make me feel better. :)

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  2. this was very deep, and truly touching. Don't cry over people, it changes nothing for them

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    1. Thank you. I will try not too, it's hard!

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    2. the first step is always the hardest.

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  3. After such a lot of cries, smile is must!

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    1. True that. And just so you know, it did. :)

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  4. you know i cried too. and still do. life does that to you. and at this stage you have no one to blame even. which makes it harder. but this phase passes.and we live life.
    and if you need to talk, i'm here for u =)

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    1. thank you, really, this means alot!

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