tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61407699148714530262024-03-12T18:43:14.451-07:00EVERLASTING WORDSDay by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is differentMominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.comBlogger163125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-39141437993370278642016-07-12T14:07:00.001-07:002016-07-12T14:07:29.515-07:00But that was not the last of it.<div class="WordSection1">
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Unattended dreams,<o:p></o:p></div>
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Broken sighs. <o:p></o:p></div>
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The blood seeping<o:p></o:p></div>
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From you.<o:p></o:p></div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-59796233552204616822016-05-14T13:35:00.001-07:002016-05-14T13:35:54.706-07:00Bone China and Tea Tags.<div>
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<br />Dainty teacups make me anxious. <br /><br />There I said it. <br /><br />I’d drink tea out of enormous mugs, <br /><br />And Styrofoam cups, <br /><br />With tea tags dangling<br /><br />Like tiny ornaments. <br /><br />But tea cups. <br /><br />Ah, no. <br /><br />They don’t help much.<br /><br />There’s always the possibility<br /><br />Of the precious china shattering, <br /><br />The unamendable beauty <br /><br />Of these fragile handled bowls. <br /><br />And all that clatter. <br /><br />Oh! That clatter. <br /><br />So much like a tiny heart. <br /><br />So much amiss. <br /><br />Clattering and dainty, <br /><br />Fragile yet loud. <br /><br />And to be handled with care...<div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-30215753832154528892016-01-10T11:25:00.002-08:002016-01-10T11:25:40.637-08:00Crippling<br /><br />When you are standing on the verge of experiencing loss, you lose your hold on sanity, nothing seems certain. It's like ripples that have been generated in the calmness of a lake. Like pendulums striking one another, willing an activity to take place. <br /><br />Except amidst all that activity you find yourself still. Paused amongst chaos. Bent to the verge of breaking. Nobody knows but your Internet history is a record of the infinite articles you have read of the virus that infects your life. Your phone, a web of notes you've scribbled to hold on, trying to accept loss. You seek corners and get away from crowds and yet at times you want to lose yourself, will yourself out of the silence that withers you inside. And then there is you staring down the fourth storey, contemplating options. <br /><br /><br />And yet you find your eyes dry even though your heart weighs a ton. Loss. Loss takes away bits and pieces of you and leaves you with marks like hollows under your eyes and the inability to cry, to feel. It leaves you with a strangeness hard to decipher. It steals you of feelings and cripples you of life.<div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-56666842376354348212015-11-08T06:09:00.000-08:002015-11-08T06:09:04.765-08:00Reflections<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br /><br /> <br /><br />I drift away. Inside suffocating train carriages that overflow with people one minute and are hauntingly empty the next. The voices echo regardless of that. The scenario is a constant blur of buildings merging right into the meadows, glimpses of sunsets somewhere and black clouds of smoke rising from the various brick kilns that dot the landscape. Sometimes a sheet of fog to obscure your vision, so perfect. As if nothing beyond exists. <br /><br />I drift away, sitting on a crazy ride, right before emotions clash. The world is a bokeh of lights, through my eyes. Not a thing is clear besides the feeling of being seated surrounded by people who mutter incoherence. And then, exhilaration, excitement, fear, regret and wills clash as if it’s a war for life. And it is, in a way. Even the colorful bokeh of lights spin into a crazy whirlwind that shows patches of light. Hanging upside down, spinning 360 degrees in a constant struggle to breathe and live with an aching body and a spinning head. <br /><br />I drift away in darkened rooms that are illuminated only by the light that escapes the huge screen casting shadows on the faces that cower in fear of the horror that suddenly flashes on the screen and shakes their hearts violently. They turn eagerly towards each other to make sure they are in the same company and no one has turned into the dreadfulness on the screen. It’s a futile reassurance, but one that satisfies. <br /><br />Through all, I catch glimpses of myself, through my own eyes, not caught in reflections of mirrors, but rather that of the mind; staring out the window, hanging upside down, screaming my lungs out and staring blankly at the screen. Just glimpses that last for a split seconds, before I lose myself in the crowd.<div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-22302920291492977002015-09-07T09:02:00.000-07:002015-09-07T09:02:26.402-07:00Un-contained Crescents<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-18638724661026212492015-05-11T07:53:00.000-07:002015-05-11T07:53:56.500-07:00Gilded<br />The little girl sneaks into the kitchen, rolls up her sleeves, washes her hands. She silently draws out a bowl and sieves in the flour; making a tiny well she lets the water fill it to the brim and then continues to sort through the flour with it, kneading it into a firm dough. <div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-58691248697993012962015-02-24T08:31:00.000-08:002015-02-24T08:31:11.692-08:00Indulgence<br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-2051640033225733632015-02-05T16:43:00.000-08:002015-02-05T16:43:09.428-08:00Dying Night, Broken Sighs.<br /><br />It was only in the very last wee hour of the morning that slumber began to even tingle her senses. It drew her out of her reckless stupor and begged to be not cast aside, like an innocent yet irritating child, it tugged on her sleeve until she finally looked up from staring at the blank screen, where a sole tiny vertical line blinked with no words on either side of it. <br /><br />She drank in her surroundings; the many sheets of paper with scribbles lying on her left, and the three mismatched cups lined alongside her right, each with a similar rim of brown liquid floating at the bottom. The ear phones lay abandoned, a little far away, faint music still escaping the tiny holes that adorned it. The laptop sat in her lap, waiting, the screen flickering back to life after every fifteen minutes as she swiped her finger impatiently on the mouse pad. <br /><br />As the light started filtering outside, past the dark curtains of the night, and the stars stayed on for only a few eyes, her fingers flicked. Words poured out of her as her hands flew gracefully over the keys, knowing where to press; as if they had reached a familiar place, as if they had reached home. And her eyes fixated to the screen, watched on as the word after words materialized, marking the blank space. The silence, now replaced by the excited and impatient click of the keys, applauded in the seldom silence of the symphonies of the typed words. <br /><br />While the sun began to rise, the colors of dawn began to cascade upon God’s canvas and the stars began to hide for the day, she typed away. She stared at the screen, the silence had been broken, and words had paved their way once again. She smiled out of sheer bliss, looked up at the sky, as the last of the stars faded away. <div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-61497770144136944712014-12-08T06:01:00.000-08:002014-12-08T06:01:09.794-08:00Pandemonium<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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A distinct rapid beat starts building up in the background, tugging at the corners of my slumber. As I forget moment after moment that precedes it, it becomes more prominent; a nagging sound that rises in tempo. Chasing me as if it were a demon, deafening and irritating, swallowing me in its continuous chatter, like that of a thousand teenage girls' shrill screeching. <br /> <br /> My finger interrupts the water flow, sending tiny splashes all around that collide with the porcelain sink and bounce up.<br /><br /><i>Cold.<br /><br />Cold. <br /><br />Cold. <br /><br />Warm, finally.</i><br />I splash the water up, thawing my frozen face, eyes shut against the warmth. The next time I put my hands under the tap, formed into a bowl; the water's too hot. I pull my hands back, as if they are a cold crystal bowl that might suddenly crack and shatter under the heat. I gently push the tap towards the colder edge, the water following my demand, once again comes down Luke warm.<br /><br /> In a drugged haze I complete my daily rituals and step outside. I watch myself change in the dim morning glow. I am not inside. I sit at the edge of the bed watching myself slip on the socks and then the flat pumps on to my feet. Then as I stand before the mirror I join myself, watching, as I grab a kohl pencil dragging it underneath my eye, looking through half closed eyes, a blurred vision. <br /><br />I am being called down, voices. Several ones float up to me. Bouncing against me and drawing back and then repeating their motion. It’s awful. I shut my eyes against the commotion as if losing sight of them dancing around me would lose their reality.<br /><br />When I open my eyes it’s gone. The voices precede but visually they are no more. I look at myself, willing myself to move. It takes me a moment to realize that it’s gone too. I am no longer outside my body and I stand there staring at my reflection. My eyes rimmed with black. I stare dumbfounded at the mirror for ages before realizing it is me who ought to move. Regardless I look around me, searching for the self I won't find. <br /><br /><i>Foot before foot.<br /><br />Left then right. <br /><br />Left then right. </i><br />Then at some point I stop moving as if stuck in motion but the floor continues to move as if slipping underneath me like an escalator belt. And I stand there completely frozen. So sure of the floor's movements and those that are supposed to be mine. <br /><br />I feel sick. I hold an apple in my hand and there's a teacup before me. What am I supposed to do? I put the apple gently on the table. It wobbles on its uneven bottom, threatening to fall on its side and roll off into the distance. It doesn't. It stays perched at an awkward angle. I peek inside the teacup; empty with a shallow rim of brown liquid at the bottom mocking me.<br /><br /> Someone comes up to me. As I look up from scribbling at the page before me their lips start moving, rapidly and their eyes follow suit. As if animated by their words and yet I hear nothing. Nothing, but the dull echo of white noise. Suddenly their eyes change looking at me curiously waiting for something. I am in an agony of my own. What am I to say?<div>
<br /> And then I feel my lips move although I hear nothing but they smile and run off. I look down at the page before me partially filled with letters and words. Slowly they form an incoherent mess, drawing closer, in on themselves; an untidy mass that moves from the center of the page to the edges ready to leap at me. <br /><br />My sudden movement causes the chair to clutter to the ground and the sound of the crash is so deafening as if it might tear apart my ear drums. Somehow, resembling the drag of nails against a wall. It draws to a screeching halt and I look at a sea of faces all lost in the confusion of the moment, eyeing me.<br /> <br /> I run. The footsteps echo even in the crowded space. Cold sweat trickles down my forehead. Slowly sliding down as if in slow motion. <br /><br /><i>Drip. </i><br /><br />The sound echoes. Droplets that fall and the sound rises in the silent atmosphere. <br /><i><br />Drip. </i> <br />Constant and badgering. Willing me to move and yet I don't. My legs, as if swollen and frozen solid. My eyes blink.</div>
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My eyes flutter open. For a moment, I thought I'd forever be lost in it. Enveloping and welcome but hauntingly scary. I will them to stay open. Pictures play before me. Everything continues to jumble and unbundle before my eyes. A moving image put on repeat; weary and blurred. With darkness edging closer from its infinite ends. Closer, closer, closer. <br /> <br /> A moment of peace. Silence. As if things are paused, voices suspended and then the nagging continues.</div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-32452225705423658502014-12-02T10:00:00.000-08:002014-12-02T10:04:02.683-08:00Unheard Pleas<br />
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Knocks on her door<br />
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Fingers clutching her,<br />
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But there's no one to hear.<br />
No one's around,<br />
No one's here.<br />
As hands lock around her,<br />
And her fate bounds her.<br />
Her miseries chasing her,<br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-84142095546413760042014-11-16T03:12:00.001-08:002014-11-16T03:12:53.727-08:00When The Factitious Light Around You Dies Down, You Notice The One Overhead.<br /><br />Today my solace, my plethora of liberating writings turns three. Thank you, all for the infinite love and appreciation that has followed this little place all through. Here's a little piece that I wrote months back, a little memory to share with you all.<br /><br /><br />I've started spending the better part of my late evening sitting outside, on a red canvas chair; star gazing. We have been having some random power shortages around this particular time. I've found that it's a good time to unfold my chair under the sky. Without the street lights and other power sources it gets dark enough to see all the little stars blinking in all their glory. Well, perhaps not all of their glory but you get a fair idea of the extent of their beauty. <br /><br />Its clearer on the days it rains, with an added bonus of the wondrous smell of rain spreading all about you. They flicker like a hundred thousand lights on a vast velvety black canvas. You cannot imagine the extent of magic you feel in that moment with the dark enveloping you and stars watching over. when the atmosphere is slightly cold from the rain,there is no artificial light to impale the glory and the world is suspended in darkness and all you see is infinite stars twinkling. Its a mesmerizing and magnificent vision. And there so much to look at. You know? You look at one part of the sky and then to another and then you look back to the first one and its like a thousand or so more have suddenly popped up! I've never seen anything so beautiful and I cannot stop praising God for this. And to think that this is just an ordinary phenomenon when you compare it to the limitless natural miracles. Like a friend once said, <br /><br /><i>"Times like these I think to myself how beautiful must the creator be if His creation is so pretty." </i><br /><br />And then there are days when the sky is not as clear as you'd like it to be, when you search for the stars among the clouds and din of the nearby lights. You glimpse them up there, faded, not as close or clear as you'd like them to be, but there nonetheless.<div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-86648183139954472102014-10-27T12:30:00.000-07:002014-10-27T12:30:42.202-07:00Receding into the Dark<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />She stood under the dark sky that was threatening to break down, rather harshly. Thunder clapped over and over and the light touched the sky for a split second before it receded into the rumbling expanse of the dark. A splendid smell floated in the suffocating surrounding and air lurked thick and musky, as it rustled through the trees. Thunder split the sky again and droplets pelted the earth, one after the other, leaving dark spots where they hit. <br /><br /><br />The cold rain hit her hard, bringing her back; the sensation as if the raindrops had bruised her skin. For several moments she perceived the dark spots left by rain as blood spots. She shook her head against the vision of a cloudy red sky imprinted on her mind and looked up at the dark misty one, throwing rain in her face. The distinct smell of rain on dry soil rose all around her and she pinched her nose, trying to relieve her mind of the ghastly images she was so intent on replacing the reality with. <br /><br /><br />Her bloodshot eyes looked around; everything seemed so alive after the much awaited rain; even the grass that had brown patches amongst the green seemed brighter. Hope. perhaps, it didn't just reside in human hearts but in all surroundings. Maybe, its not just a feeling, but a sense born within nature. Hope, that we tread on, that gets rotten and bruised, yet it lives. Its not an epiphany, just reality, peeking at us every once in a while. Like the sun that decides to breakthrough the sky and illuminate so brilliantly even when its just about to set.<br /><br />She looks about herself, at everything shining even with that tinge of gloominess that comes with rain and the helplessness within our perception, and turns towards the door that leads inside. Sometimes hope does not douse the fire that burns on inside, it doesn't illuminate like the sun, it burns like it.<br /><br /><b><i><br />-Momina.</i></b>Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-37115641176462380762014-08-22T06:34:00.000-07:002014-08-22T06:34:44.591-07:00The Borders of Peril<i><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;">You've not known pain unless you've felt<br />Involuntarily spasms pass through your back bone,<br />Shaking you right to the core.<br /><br />You have not known pain unless you've lost a limb or two,<br />And ached in fire of sheer loss.<br /><br />You have not known pain unless you've tossed around night after night, <br />Not sleeping a wink, wondering </span></i><br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-172563379638465672014-08-03T22:43:00.000-07:002014-08-03T22:43:33.023-07:00Broken Conscience<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The air is hot, stale and nonexistent. Seems like every breath you draw in, is a struggle, a mouthful of nothing but emptiness and fragments of polluted oxygen. Overhead the fan whirs in aimless lazy circles even though it is set to maximum speed. It does nothing to help the suffocating atmosphere as it lethargically stirs up the thick warm air. The sun seems to filter right through the thick dusty curtains that stand still and undisturbed, heavy as if with longing and despair. A musky smell fills the room, saturated with sweat, fear and loss. <br />
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A limp hand falls off the edge of the rickety bed, every time someone turns in it it creaks as if taking its last breath. The hand hangs there, the fingers opening and closing ever so slowly, clutching through the thin air. The pillow is a chaos of thick brown hair, combed away from the face and neck, matted with sweat that also glistens on the face and leaves dark patches on the clothes that cling to the body. The chest rises and falls, struggling for breath through excruciating pain. The air wheezes in and out in a futile attempt to nourish the body. <br />
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She stands in the doorway; eyes weary and body slump, her eyes fixated on the figure in the bed and the constant whisper of a prayer on her dry chapped lips. Her hands hang by her side in a defeated gesture; as if there's nothing more she can do with them, her legs shaking ever so slightly. As the light recedes from the room, the room doesn't cool. <br />
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In the early hours of the morning she turns, averting her eyes from the bed, her feet shuffle towards another door, not so far away, which leads her outside. Her tread is slow and painful, as she walks through empty roads. Eventually her feet give away and she drops down on the pavement, on an unfamiliar. Overhead, the clouds rumble as if with anger, making the little light at this hour look rather eerie and unusual. Her eyes scan the empty roads, the stationary cars and the dark houses, suspending her into her worst fears. <br />
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The sound and the dampness brings her back, the rain falls slowly at first. The heat rises from the hot road, pushing its way up, escaping in the tiny puffs of dust that rise as drops pelt down harder. It comes down hard, so hard that it burns her. It feels as though it will cause depressions and groves in her paper thin skin. It hurls down at her as if it were the sentiments that she's lived through, as if it’s the abuse and loss she's suffered through life. It breaks her down bit by bit, cracking the shell, bruising her flesh, her existence, her conscience. <br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-36038014434570488972014-06-24T10:36:00.001-07:002014-06-24T11:46:03.765-07:00Just The Dark Silhouettes To Illuminate Her Path <div style="text-align: center;">
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She walks in the middle of the barren street, illuminated by the street lights at uneven gaps. She walks freely amidst the dark stretches, and then cowers when the unbroken light bulbs continue to illuminate her path. There’s nothing around except the silhouette of overhanging trees and houses suspended in seemingly peaceful silence. To her, though, it’s haunting. The silence, the lights; it makes fear claw at her spine, raising the hair on her neck and bare arms; the fear of being visible in a setting so vulnerable, the fear of an incoming car; the dread that so often stops her in her tracks and shift her head from side to side to evade the feeling of being looked at. Fear haunts her but it keeps her walking, through the unlit and lit patches, through the eerie surroundings and through the distress that doesn't show.</div>
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Her illuminated form doesn’t pause in its track, but fear leaves, slipping past the hold of her mind so quickly, replaced by something else. It wraps it’s tendrils around her, wounding around her legs and moving them forward so she doesn’t stands still. Escape. It pushes her forward, towards the car. Her life doesn’t flashes before her eyes. There is nothing besides the bright lights blurring as they come nearer and nearer. Her feet pick up pace and she grins in the face of freedom.</div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-79296432872137300762014-04-15T06:33:00.001-07:002014-04-16T04:44:52.305-07:00As I stand on your doorstep, tattered and bruised. <br />
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I stand on your door step,<br />
Tattered and bruised.<br />
You get one glimpse<br />
And hold me close.<br />
You shoulder digging into<br />
My collarbone;<br />
So painfully comforting<br />
Of your presence once more.<br />
I won't let go,<br />
I hold on tight.<br />
I sit before you<br />
With tales not scarce.<br />
Words are to be summoned<br />
For a sermon too long.<br />
You wait patiently<br />
As I stare straight ahead.<br />
My eyes water,<br />
But words don't abide.<br />
But I won't let go,<br />
So I hold on tight.<br />
They roll of my tongue<br />
Syllables and sounds.<br />
Incoherent and imprecise<br />
To sum up my wounds.<br />
I narrate to you, <br />
The struggle that begins<br />
Each day as the world shifts<br />
Slightly around.<br />
From a single view,<br />
So safe and sound<br />
But the war I fight <br />
Just doesn't subside.<br />
I don't let go,<br />
And I hold on tight<br />
As I narrate to you,<br />
Stories I found.<br />
The tears come,<br />
Between restless sighs.<br />
You reach over and whisper<br />
'Don't let go,<br />
Hold on tight.'<br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-86729902007688845092014-03-23T22:06:00.001-07:002014-03-23T22:06:32.999-07:00Styrofoam cup and souvenoirs.The tea splashed a little from the sudden jump and she swallowed hard against the bounce. The scalding tea burned her chest with sudden heat that eventually subsided into a pleasant warmth. Hugging the teacup close, she ran her tongue over her dry lips, shrinking further into the tiny space she occupied. Her weary eyes scanned the scenes that ran past, through the window; the familiar territory and landscape slowly fading, merging into the unfamiliar and desolate surroundings.<br />
<br />Between the throng of people and the constant bouncy ride she sat stiffly, clutching the disposable cup that was, now the only souvenir she had from the land that she had left behind. <br /><br />Every now and then she would be pushed right to the edge of the seat due to the gradually increasing crowd and her hand would jolt up fixing her scarf on her head. She didn't spoke to anyone neither did anyone bother with it. <br /><br />Vulnerable and lone, she picked up herself when the bus stopped this time. Holding on to the cup with one hand and the front seat with the other she waited for the bus to stop. As the people started leaving while an equal amount of people barged in, she stared fixated at the small styrofoam cup in her hand. After much thought as she was pushed by people vacating and hogging seats she pushed the cup under the seat and stepped off the bus.<br /><br />She never turned back but as the bus started moving the cup rolled out from under the seat and a little boy promptly picked it up and threw it outside<br style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 15px; line-height: 20.82666778564453px;" /><br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-28816512283588565162014-01-30T05:49:00.000-08:002014-01-30T05:49:59.376-08:00The Last Note A Distant Hum Of Tinkling Bells...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br /><br /><br />She blows delicately through perfectedly pouted lips; a gentle blow that causes the shiny liquid layer to swell into a ball and blow off with the light breeze, only to pop seconds later. The air is thick and dry, the atmosphere near barren and devoid of much color. In the midst of it float the few bubbles that waft their way here and there before they snap into tiny unseen droplets of soap. she watches them hover in the air; illuminating tiny rainbows within the delicate little see through spheres, and sighs. <br /><br />She stands with her back pressed against the back of a red car, a cup of soap mix in her hand, the other clutching a ball point pen lacking its ink fill. Next to her, sitting on the boot of the car is a little kid, like her, clutching half a bottle of slick soapy water and bubble making stick. <br /><br />They keep there postures intact, not moving besides their heaving shoulders and their cheeks inflating and deflating like balloons as they blow. The midday sun grows fainter over their heads, dropping lower with time while they blow their respective bubbles, watching them flutter in the light breeze. Delightfully, they watch them dance in the wind, enjoying their lives before they are popped away. <br /><br />At times the little kid shrieks with delight as he streches out to burst a big bubble even before it escapes the edge of her pen, his laugh echoing in the still air, the last note a distant hum of tinkling bells. Sometimes the bubbles shatter as they were blown in. It would burst in their face, smarting their eyes slightly; like a joke with a bad pun. <br /><br />Just as the sun is on the verge of dipping down and kissing the horizon she turns, tilting the remaining liquid in her glass into the kid's bottle. As she leaves he looks startled, sad and slightly happy at the prospect of more soapy water. Sitting in her car she looks at the anonymous kid sitting in his car porch on his car in the empty neighbourhood who lended her his bubble mix. He continues to blow gently, making bubbles that light up the empty surroundings in the still July air. <br /><br />She smiles at his innocent form and drives away with slippery soapy hands for a another date with the future.<div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-70561876633209960292014-01-26T09:52:00.000-08:002014-01-26T09:52:15.806-08:00A Peek into Her Soul<br /><br />Everyone with whom you share an eye contact becomes an untold story in your head. That day she bacame an unseen story in the heads of so many individuals. An untold story that buzzed with such intensity despite the little place it took in the folds of their minds. <br /><br />She fled meaninglessly through the empty roads leaving a havoc in her wake. She never got a chance to read into the stories that glimpsed her that day. No, she was far beyond that point; her eyes a soulless abyss that saw through everything without actually looking at anything before them. The despair in her face and the emptiness in her eyes caused many to look back at her once or twice, but she never noticed. <br /><br />She was not there; wrapped in her own misery she walked through the roads leaving an eerie feeling to those who caught sight of her, stared and watched her go only to be left with an agitation for having glimpsed the darkness dividing her soul. <div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-30718003683672935262014-01-17T03:39:00.000-08:002014-01-17T03:39:28.281-08:00Eternal Insanity<br />
I call for death in a desperate attempt to escape this suffering, this eternal insanity. Bewildered, I watch as it stands there, mocking me. It watches me innocently as I lie there frozen in pain of my thawing bones. It smiles knowingly. Its at ease as it watches me suffer, for it knows that I'll soon be enveloped in it's embrace. Hence, it lets me hang on to the shreds of life, overlooking my pleading eyes, my desirous cries. <br />
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The light of life dims before my blurry eyes like the flash slowly receding into darkness. In the last bits of the abating light I see death smile in my face. I smile back.<br />
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-60409887561021524982014-01-05T07:34:00.001-08:002014-01-05T07:46:55.041-08:00This may or maynot be a poem.Lets have conversation about word and how terribly beautiful they are.<br />
We'll have mellow music in the background while we refer to the <i>thak thak</i> of a typewriter;<br />
Comparing it with the <i>thik thik</i> of a laptop's keys, silence of a phone's keypad<br />
And the scratch of a pencil over a note.<br />
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Lets have a conversation about how words leap.<br />
About how instead of painting pictures, we write in our own heads, what we see.<br />
Lets speak about how they swerve eagerly, transforming mere thoughts<br />
Into memories, into history.<br />
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Lets have a conversation about words and how they jump,<br />
At the emotion unstability of our surroundings. About how they make us feel what a stranger feels,<br />
Cry at fictional sorrows and embrace the happiness of those who reside between,<br />
The pages of a novel.<br />
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Let's have a conversation about words, lets aimlessly wander with them.<br />
Let's stop making sense.<br />
Lets leave this epiphany to continue to it's own end.<br />
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<i><b>-Momina.</b></i><br />
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As you eye her careful stance, envying her balance, her hold on life, you assume things, one over the other about the perfection of her life, herself. You never once guess at the fact that this very girl once pressed a smarting cigarette between her delicate lips, trying to ease the pressure that threatened to strangle her. You don’t assume that she relied on the blissful numbing effects of nicotine to escape the intensity of those failures. <br /><br />As she walks through, smiling at one and all you assume her as a celebrity, happy and frank with all. Yet, you don’t ever see the never ceasing creases on her forehead, even as she laughs. You don’t notice how she always smiles briefly and is so often lost in thoughts. And you certainly don’t see the slight pain in her eyes that gives you a peek into the hardships of her life.<br /><br />As she goes around telling people to hold on, to not let go, you don’t see how she reminisces those days when her own hold on reality was so brief that she was almost about to let go. She floats like a free bird yet her reality is a cage in itself, unable to break free.<br /><br />You don’t observe the tiny tattoo of an anchor she looks to every now and then, drawing and redrawing over it, in an attempt to hold back. She hides the scars and the carcass of those hidden thoughts behind her attire and yet with each passing eternity it threatens to jump back to life and cut away her anchors. </div>
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In the confines of her home, with her perfect hair wrapped in an untidy bun atop her head, lose wisps of hair framing her face she closes her eyes against the stinging smoke. There are three cigarette studs in the ash tray and sill half the box to be puffed away, while she waits for the spreading fire to swallow her completely. <div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-229967822482370112013-12-08T06:21:00.001-08:002013-12-08T06:21:11.236-08:00Until then. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />The sky… The sky is a perfect blue. The kind that compels you to hold your gaze there and stare at it until minutes pass .There is a dull golden moon, not half and not entirely a crescent, decorating the royal blue; partially lighting it up. The sky is still a little rusty at the edges; where the ends mingle with the lands and disappear behind buildings, all around. </div>
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<br />And between the tall buildings that surround the area, between the long shadows she stands silently staring above at the reality she shares with a million others. A thousand of who could be stranded alone gazing at this mutual reality, thinking this very thing. She’s holding on to that single thought or else she could sink under the weight that pushes her down. She could drown and she’s willing to but not yet. Not until that thread breaks off. Not until she really knows that there is nobody out there not going through the same troubles.</div>
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Mominahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14784732240852124082noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6140769914871453026.post-33528692591734053032013-11-21T19:18:00.000-08:002013-11-22T04:32:10.332-08:00White Noise.<br />
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You can't escape it, the noise. You can't flee from it. It penetrates through the thick walls, through closed doors. It travels to the quilt you are curled under in a desperate attempt to evade it. But it passes through, and it continues past the pillow covering your head inside the quilt. It snakes in between the vaccum in the middle of your ear and the headphones that blast music to drown out that noise. It grows over the beat of the music bellowing into your ear like a formidable, daunting whisper.<br />
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It's the background hum that never recedes. Instead, it continues to built up in intensity against all odds. It rocks your threshold. Slowly breaking your hold on tranquility. It throws you into a cyclone of commotion. Clamour. Racket. Uproar. It tears away the shred of peace you hold on to.<br />
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You scream. You scream so loudly in the depths of the night and in broad daylight. It's like a shadow that haunts and stalks you, no matter what time of the day it is, no matter what your surrroundings are. It pinches your fears, fueling them into a burning rage. Bubbling hot inside you while you are in a desperate attempt to cool off.<br />
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No one understands as you stand on the threshold of insanity; breaking down brick by brick, unable to hold still. All your attempts seem frutile. Nobody sees the fear behind your glassy eyes. No one notices sweat that breaks on your face. No one realizes what pain you are in. And nobody hears your silence screaming.<br />
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